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the Absence of Moving:  Released in 2000

Jill Cohn : The Absence Of Moving                    

Produced by Jill Cohn
Recorded & Mixed by Steve Sherrard at Music Tech, Tirad and Avast Studios- Seattle
Mastered by Tom Baker at Precision Audio- Los Angeles
Arranged by Cohn, Staskowski and Fulton
String section on "all about fear" Composed & Arranged by Greg Fulton

The Musicians:
Piano, Acoustic Guitar and Vocals- Jill Cohn
Drums- Adam Barons
Bass- Dennis Staskowski
Electric and Acoustic Guitar - Greg Fulton

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THE TRUTH

staying in your room may be the closest I will ever get to you
I can play with a dream for a while, and lament on what it would be like to be your girl
do we ever really fall in love
or is it just a reprieve from the stuff of life that grows on us too thick, 
are we ever truly free of it?

my soul wants to be with you
my soul wants to unite
my heart is so tired of being broken
my soul wants the truth

my cat is wandering around your garden, and I have a wonder in my heart
I have no time for puppy love, and romance isn't what I need right now
do we ever really fall in love
or is it just a reprieve from the stuff of life that grows on us too thick, 
are we ever truly free of it?

my soul wants to be with you
my soul wants to unite
my heart is so tired of being broken
my soul wants the truth

How will we recognize what's divine
our minds will divide the purest of words
I only know that your essence combined with mine makes the world grow quiet
my hand is touching your hand and I almost think I'm home
your voice is so soothing

my soul wants to be with you
my soul wants to unite
my heart is so tired of being open
we reach for words that are yet unspoken
my heart is so tired of being broken
my soul wants the truth


LOUISIANA LOVER

I got a Louisiana lover
and he's so fine
everybody thinks he's a girl 
when he's kissing me

he lives 357 and a half miles away
he might as well be on Mars if I can't see him today

his voice is so soothing on my telephone
it almost makes my empty house feel like home
and then he has to go
and the walls are so bare
I cant bear putting up pictures
or digging my roots down anywhere

We smashed the frames
and changed my name
I was looking for love on the outside
I left my soul on the muddy Mississippi
and retired on an Island
too far away for him to follow me

Well, I got tire treads on my arm
you know he almost missed my heart
leaving me alone too long
drinking beer in the trailer park
Then, I gave him a shovel
to see how far he'd dig
and he buried himself down in a hole
and was never seen again

We smashed the frames
and changed my name
I was looking for love on the outside
I left my soul on the muddy Mississippi
and retired on an Island
too far away for him to follow me

I got a Louisiana lover
he's so fine
everybody thinks that he's a girl
everybody thinks that he's a girl
©1998-1999 Box O' Beanies Music BMI. Reproduced By Permission.
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HAPPY

so you bought yourself a dream, an American dream
is that a need?
and now that you've got everything, or so it seems
I dropped that facade long ago
I couldn't heal myself with the things I bought and sold

now that you are tiring of the lie
you give it one more try to save our marriage
well, we're always trying to save ourselves, 
"enjoy your life" is what everyone is selling, but I'm not listening

cause I just want to be
Happy
I just want to be
Happy
I close my eyes so I can see
I just want to be....Happy

I've been driving now for days and days without food or sleep
just to see how well I'd fair
I thought that I was heading home, but now I know that home is everywhere you 
are, and I will never turn my back again
cause I am certain that you are my eternal friend
but we are always trying to save ourselves, 
enjoy your life, is what everyone is selling, but I'm not listening

I just want to be
happy
I close my eyes so I can breathe
I just want to be happy.

my car is dripping poison in the dessert
my consumption is choking off the earth
if I can't get myself together, what will my life be worth?


KAYENTA

my bus broke down in kayenta
but I was born again into myself and all the things that everyone says isn't 
true 
about their neighbors and foes
its just a bit of water in the sea
my parents worry about me everyday
my dad calls at least 3 times a week to see if I'm ok
'cause I'm his pride and joy
well, I think I'd like to disappear
escape my fear of all the things haunting me from my past.
then I see him after a year and I almost don't remember his name
he talks like he's on auto pilot, 
I'm having trouble concentrating on the conversation
cause, I really don't care what has happened to him
and I am so glad he broke my heart. 
and I say:

hey, I'm free
hey......I'm free
and I am no longer afraid to be

I put my hands behind my back, trying to not let my smile crack, I'm counting 
on my fingers
all the miles I have driven and the songs I have written since his rejection.
and I feel so alive waking up in my bus on somebody's street in Berkeley, and 
no one knows where I am
except for god and the garbage man
who taps on my window, cause I've parked in his way
and I open the door, and I say

hey, I'm free
hey......I'm free
and I am no longer afraid to be

I used to hurt myself everyday
I was so uncomfortable in my skin
well, my soul didn't want to be back in the cage
but I knew deep inside of me, my emancipation had been arranged
I was so hungry for the change
then I see Him again, after several millennium, and I cant believe He knows 
my name, and I talk like I'm on auto pilot, I'm having trouble concentrating 
on the conversation. I am too nervous, but I look in His eyes, and I realize 
truth is here, and I sing........

hey, I'm free
hey......I'm free
hey, I'm free
hey, I'm free
and I am no longer afraid to be
no longer afraid
no longer afraid
to be


SHORE

Some of us are not of this world
we walk with one foot in and one foot poised on the swim
and we hold our breath
practice our death and long to be in the pool with you
Chorus when I make it to Your shore
will you ask me to swim alone?
I long to drown in Your tears of joy
I want to make You proud

when I make it to Your shore
we'll sing hallelujah
sweet release in me
and You will never leave

So, I float like a ghost in and out of Your town
I play my music where I can and try not to bring you down
my pain is all I've known till now
and You insist on showing me the sweeter side of life
You're gonna make me stay until I do
Chorus when I make it to Your shore
will you ask me to swim alone?
I long to drown in Your tears of joy
I want to make You proud

when I make it to Your shore
we'll sing hallelujah
sweet release in me
and You will never leave

I think I understand the lesson now
I let go a little too quick, thought I could go it alone
this time I'm gonna hold on tight
so tight that when you release me, I'll still be touching you


WIND CHIMES

so you call me to tell me your news
I tried so long not to hear it from you
it seems so strange that were moving on
another winter with you gone
I thought I'd fly myself down to San Francisco
to see your mom and make some bread
but I quickly lost my inclinations
and fear commanded me to stay instead

this is the last song I'll write about you
believe me baby, I speak my truth
this is the last song I'll write about you

this disbelief is shared by everyone
including me
I can't believe its not you bringing a wedding ring
cause I remember chasing the cats around the house
lying on the floor dyeing of laughter

this is the last song I'll write about you
believe me baby, I speak my truth
this is the last song I'll write about you

I've been missing the wind chimes at Nini's far too much these days
when we see each other baby, there is nothing real left to say
maybe its the California sun- its so cold outside my window
or maybe its the home we had
I still miss you sometimes
the last time I saw you was with your new girlfriend
and she cooked purple potatoes in our old house
and the guy I was traveling with
he said, "there's something there" between me and you
and I laughed at him, and laughed some more


NOT AFRAID

be not afraid of the night
be not afraid of what could be
I am not afraid of my lonely state
I only fear the absence of moving

there is no sound on the ice
the tumbling and twisting of life
I see my breath against the cold of the night
and somewhere in the distance I hear my voice
yes it surely must be me screaming my father's name
he says

do not be afraid of the night
do not be afraid of what could be
I am not afraid of my lonely state
I only fear the absence of moving

in the darkest of nights
I thought I was chasing my dreams
so steadfast and focused, I don't see the ravine
and the people who've lost their souls they wilt into paper
the colors of the cartoon melt with the snowfall

do not be afraid of the night
do not be afraid of what could be
I am not afraid of my lonely state
I only fear the absence of moving

now we're all heading down
on a course that's crashed a thousand times before
but this time I reach under my seat
and I, I take his hand, he shows me his mercy
I start to understand how the promise could be fulfilled
has he come here to take me home?
or perhaps help me go again
second time around I will surely know my friend when I see him
I long to be with him

LOVE WOULD BE ENOUGH

people in this town they all want a future
people in the towers just want money
now isn't it funny that both are illusion
I wanna make my own town where no one's drowning with confusion
I'm gonna find a place

where love would be enough to heal the world
where love would be enough to ease the hurt

people in this decade are searching for an answer
and I already found some and it was inside myself
wouldn't it be perfect if we all did that very same thing at the same time
connecting our souls with the flame is what we're hungering to do
I'm gonna find a place

where love would be enough to heal the world
where love would be enough to ease the hurt
what would happen if one love was all that it took
where love would be enough to heal the world

everybody's always looking for something better
to see if the grass is really greener on the other side
well do you have to be sitting on the fence to see that far?
one life one love one heart one soul
100 miles till I make it to my Guru's talk
well he shows me my own divinity
and now that I believe it to be sacred and eternal
the sound is so bright, it will guide my way
I'm gonna find a place


MAP

I'm drawing myself in a little bit clearer now
as you drift from my mind
I long to have you closer, but I turn myself to my

paper, and my pen
so I can escape from where I've been
if I had one chance, I'd do it again
I'd draw myself into the map of your world

I don't mind being the sun you rely upon, that brightens your day
I'll play second fiddle while holding the ladder
I'll be your child at play
I'm following little footsteps to the pond
no, she cannot be gone
funny how we turn our backs one minute and life changes forever
could I make a different choice, a different choice
I'd choose a different door
I would love being your shady tree, you've done it for me
oh but life's never even Teresa, and I'm so sorry
that I'm keeping score


ALL ABOUT FEAR

I got the last word, but that's all I got
the satisfaction in slamming your door
one more message on your answering machine
doesn't feel complete, doesn't feel real clean
I'm scratching the surface of the bottom here
I'm drinking too much these days I'm blurring my clear
wondering why it's always gotta be about you
where is your love?

I'm afraid of what I know will come flying off of my tongue
I'm afraid my stronger stance will offend everyone
with my opinions, my passions, my mind, my karma too
I've learned to take you in, I will take you in
and not be the glue that repairs the tears
or the tears that water a dying tree
I'll learn how to merge, and I will speak my mind
I will not be sustained by starving on silence
where is your love?

why is it all about fear?
why is it all about fear?
there is no room for your anger in here
where is your love?
I search myself
I look inside

you used to be so kind, but you lost your smile
you had the time and you kissed it away
and now you find what you wanted to say 
if you tried to take it back, you know
it would still be gone
I ask myself, where is your love
I search inside
I look inside
why is it all about fear?


INSTEAD OF THE INNOCENT

in the silence after digging a shallow grave
do you think of the people that you've marched for days
is this your calm before your next anger storm
do you think of your wife and loved ones
some shelter from your harm

maybe there is no silence in your head
maybe you'd rather kill your own voice instead
instead of the innocent

in the silence after you've raped someone
do you flash back to a time of your own violation
or will you torch their house to burn your remorse
piously proclaiming that nature has surrendered to your force

maybe there is no silence in your head
maybe you'd rather kill your own voice instead
instead of the innocent

in the silence after you've orphaned a child
do you now believe your anger is solved by genocide
has there ever been peace and quiet and harmony in your heart
at what point do we let resentment go, and the healing start?

maybe there is no silence in your head
maybe you'd rather kill your own voice instead
instead of the innocent